My doctor often talked about the psychological effects of brain injury. At the time I thought I was fine, that might have had something to do with all the painkillers pumping through me. It was only later that I noticed my emotions were really unhinged; my moods were really strong and shifted constantly.
It was difficult to re-adjust at first; I don’t think I’m being overdramatic in saying that after nearly dying my perception of my life had significantly shifted. What did I have to show for my life? I quit my job that understood my situation and immediately found an office job in order to start a proper career, to get money to go travelling again.
Three days in I had a panic attack and quit. My head felt as though it had a million thoughts running through it, and I found it really hard to focus. A year’s anniversary of the meningitis and I was still in and out of jobs, mainly retail work, where I either couldn’t physically keep up and mentally I was mess; as I found it hard to focus and think straight.