Ever since I contracted meningitis I've felt lost and have suffered my whole life. I've always faked being happy, hiding my real feelings, I was just a lost soul. I felt left out of those around me at school. I was a child missing the laughter around me as I thought they were always laughing at me.
I suffer neurological problems such as memory loss and migraines. I have some nerve damage and spinal problems. I find it hard to explain my thoughts to doctors. Every doctor I talk to just keeps giving me pills, I wish I could find one who specializes in meningitis - it sucks. I just want a direction in life so I can try to push forward.
I am happy to have my son, even though the doctor said my chances of having a new-born was slim. I have so much more to tell...