Posted by Stephen Roe on 15 October 2012
I lost my little boy, William Lloyd Roe nine years ago, February 14th of all days. He was only 6 months old. I still find it very difficult and miss him dearly. I wonder what he would have been like and what he would be doing now? I wonder what his relationship would have been like with his brother?
The guilt I feel is unbearable, I will always wonder 'what if?' and 'could I have done more?'
Why didn't our doctor recognise the symptoms - why didn't I? My questions are never ending.
Losing William broke my faith and paid a large part in the inevitable demise of my 21 year relationship and my subsequent mental breakdown 3 years ago.
I couldn't face up to even looking at the MRF website or anything associated with Meningitis but became involved in the Make-A-Wish foundation and have been a member now for 8 years.
The aim of the Foundation is to grant the Wish Children their dream - and as painful as it is I am able to cope with this as it's not Meningitis.
I've been self employed for 22 years but lost all heart in my design agency and eventually formed a new company In memory of my son.
William Lloyd bespoke garden structures is now up and running and showing great promise. I'm also hoping to exhibit at Chelsea Flower show in 2013 and intend donating a percentage of my profits to the MRF.
I hope this is going to help me accept what happened to William and to also become involved with the MRF fundraising. Maybe then I can face up to and deal with the past and in turn try and help others deal with the effects of this dreadful disease.