I was diagnosed with meningitis on 8th March, but i couldn't be told if it was viral, or bacterial and where it had come from. I have been out of hospital for 3 weeks now and it is still extremely hard for me to do anything for myself. I am 32 years old and usually very active. I have a daughter who is 4 and we do everything together, but not since i got ill. I have a partner, who is not the father of my child and the relationship is a year old. Cracks were starting to show, but suddenly today i was told that they no longer wish to be my carer and are fed up with looking after me, and seeing me as not me. This has been extremely difficult to hear, as I don't feel like me, nor am i someone who likes depedning on others to so things for me but I need the time and support to get better. i have only just started to feel like i can address how i am feeling emotionally as everything since being in hospital has been about the physical and surviving and this has knocked me sideways. This also made me think about what support is out there for those who are looking after us and those, like my child who are trying to cope seeing her mum in this way? What am I to do when someone gives up on me and walks away, telling me they have had enough of being my carer?. I think this situation is very hard to deal with and has added to the extra stress and anxitiey i am already feeling, while trying to literally i feel build my body back together again,
Posted in by Charm Tinn on 05 April 2012
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