Years passed, I left school with no qualifications. I think I began to accept the loss of my hearing the older I got, I was so very stubborn though in accepting this. I struggled every day in the hearing world and I still do, very much. It's an invisible disability that others can't see unless they know me personally and I have had many times where people think I am just plain ignorant for not responding to them when they speak to me.
Sometimes I do feel like screaming at people and giving them a wee piece of my mind when I get a certain "look" from some. Just to say "you really don't understand what I went through unless you have experienced it for yourself" so just please don't judge and look at me like there is nothing wrong with my hearing.
I was fortunate to be able to speak before meningitis took hold and I can still speak just fine to this day (although I tend to either talk too loud or not loud enough and struggle to remember how words are pronounced) but I get by with the help of family and a good few friends as well as my husband and son. I have bad balance problems and get very wary of meeting new people.
There's a lot of things I struggle with to be honest. But at the end of the day, I am now older and a wee bit wiser and know that things could have been so much worse for me for I’m alive, I’m here to this day. I didn't have any rash... only some of the symptoms of bacterial meningitis. I was a very lucky young girl but I survived and I am a survivor, so many have lost their lives to this awful disease. I would never wish it upon anyone, ever.
I got married in June 2019, it was the best day of my life, right up there with giving birth to my son. I felt very blessed... life is good and peaceful right now... long may it continue.
Please never hesitate with the signs of meningitis, get help fast... you could be saving a life or even your own.