Posted by Esther Trackman on 11 December 2013
Runners often say that the hardest part of your first run is convincing yourself to get your shoes on and get outside. For me it took a long time (ok, a really long time) of thinking about it before it finally happened. I thought about what it would be like to get fit, and how that would make me feel. I thought about how proud I would be for achieving something so out of character. Perhaps it would give me more energy and provide a way to ‘clear my head’. I worried that I wouldn’t have time to run, that I would never get any better (I have tried running for a bus before, it’s always a challenge), and that I simply wouldn’t enjoy it. I paid more and more attention to runners passing me by as I was out and about. I was trying to work out if they were having a better time than me and curiosity started to creep in. Eventually, to my surprise, I found myself looking forward to it. Going to running events this year has certainly helped. Running events are crazy – it’s all so exciting, and there’s so much emotion I tend to find myself welling up at various points throughout the day, for all sorts of different reasons. It’s so inspiring to see people running for charity, wearing their vests and surrounded by supportive friends and family. Running for charity is about so much more than covering the distance. Having said that I am really impressed at what people are able to do! If you’re still stuck in this mental preparation phase, go along to an event or watch some videos online, its inspiring stuff.
So I’m going to get fit, show myself I can do it, become part of the mysterious running community, and find out why on earth some people seem so in love with running regardless of the weather. I’m going to join the team and cross the finish line wearing my Meningitis Research Foundation running vest beaming with pride, even if I never learn to love running and even if it’s raining and I’m still not very good at it. Although the first step was unexpectedly difficult, I’m really glad I took the time to connect with and deepen my motivation.